So many people chase after an entirely false definition of success and in so doing, grow this culture of usery that not only permeates their professional lives but rapidly carries-over to their personal lives, reeking havoc. As a result most of us are starved for authenticity, affection and affirmation.
I believe it to be the epidemic that is destroying us from within.
It has become so bad and dark these days. Perhaps it’s because of my perspective at 52 years of age and so many experiences already behind me. Two failed marriages, one failed engagement and a plethora of failed relationships, mostly due to my own stupid fears. It’s complicated. I’m talked about as an “embarrassment to the family name.” I see it more of not settling for anything less than actual, true-blue love.
From all those learning experiences I can now clearly and unequivocally state the absolute disdain I have for the casual, business-like approach these days toward human intimacy. My anger is off the charts and I’m not afraid to admit it. It’s just like “my God!!!!! what the hell are all you people doing?”
How about that one for a “WTF.”
The human heart is sacred. It’s where the soul resides in this earthly existence. To play with someone’s heart – as if it were disposable like a plastic water bottle – will ALWAYS, ALWAYS lead to a darkness that no amount of money or self-medication will conquer. In fact both will bury the pit that much deeper!
The guilt and shame of playing with another’s heart can not be disguised either by half-efforts at pretend “friendship” and best budship after that line of intimacy has been crossed and a heart devoted. Here too, the pit only gets deeper and darker.
I speak from very painful experience. I know this to be true.
Everyone now has accepted life as one, big episode of “Survivor.” “I’m going to get mine and to hell with you.”
There is only one way out of that kind of life, if you can even call it a life.
What’s so disgusting these days is that it has become the norm for people approaching their senior years!!! And with grandchildren!!! Holy crap.
See, that’s what is so depressing these days. Back in my 20s I went overboard with those dark behaviors. I hurt people. I carry that to this day and always will. The difference today is that I see people well into their 50s and 60s doing it even more than when they were younger!
We’ve created these corporate/social environments that actually promote the very behavior that rips apart loving relationships and families, all in the name of profit and this demented view of “success.”
Kids are imitating it in schools and on college campuses. They are being taught that treating people as objects to be used for their own benefit is perfectly fine. The hook-up culture must be ok because they see their parents doing it, right?
Social media has intensified the game while furthering the detachment.
It is not ok. It is dark. It is wrong.
For those you mistakenly believe that there’s nothing wrong with dismal path of human usery, keep going and just see where you end up. I am going to fight for the real deal. Even if I never find it, or it never finds me, I’d rather be alone and true to love than live lonely and painfully mistaken. I will keep the fire. I refuse to settle for anything less.